As we grow up and go about our lives, often we don’t give balanced focus to ourselves. When we begin to feel that imbalance, we start to awaken, and we move out of a survival phase and into the phase of consciousness. Then we start to realize that some of our patterns don’t really leave us feeling fulfilled. At that point, we look to the left, and we look to the right, and wake up to realization that there must be some other possibility. We realize that there must be something more, and we begin a search, we begin to seek.
We can get caught up in our conscious “seeking” just like we can be caught up in unconscious “surviving.” We can reach a point where we are just using seeking as what appears to be a smarter way of surviving. Before, we survived by doing what we had been shown, modeled, and taught. Then we started to put some of our own consciousness into it, and went down the seeking path. And the seeker eventually must realize that the act of only seeking keeps them from ever landing inside of that which they are seeking. They never have the experience they’re wanting so long as they continue to seek and to strive. At some point, we will have collected enough information about ourselves and about life that we are satisfied with that. Then we will drop into our core, and we will start feeling good about that.
As we feel good about being in the core, we start to activate our feeling body instead of just living in our mental survivorship. It starts to feel good that we’re learning so much, that we’re staking a claim for ourselves. And we start to cultivate a conscious connection to a layer closer to the small, still voice.